A Cuckold’s Perspective

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A Cuckold’s Perspective[Once again, this is for A & T, who’s real-life adventure in Africa has inspired this narrative. Names and other details regarding who they are have been changed and altered to protect their true identities. Once again, thank you A & T! As before, I will use the structure of an ‘interview’ to explore the cuckold lifestyle.]Q. I’d like to thank you for agreeing to set down and talk with me about what can only be regarded as a very personal and intimate subject.A. I want to try and explain, in some fashion, what it’s like (at least for me) to be a cuckold-husband. So, hopefully, this will dispel some of the mystery, and misinformation, surrounding this lifestyle.Q. I guess the first question that I’d like to start with is: Why did you and your wife choose to have some other guy get her pregnant, instead of you? That seems counter-intuitive to the way most married couples would go about having a baby.A. The idea, initially, came from Mara. My wife. We’d been married for about two years when she brought up the idea. We were watching TV, and there was an ad that came on showing a white married couple walking down the street, and between them they were holding the hands of a little girl, who was obviously of a mixed-race background—and Mara said: “That’s what I want. A black baby.”Q. And how did you react?A. I was sort of surprised, at first, but we got to talking more about that, and the more we did (and this went on, now and then, for several months) the more I found myself strangely excited by this idea. Mara wasn’t talking about adopting such a c***d, either. That’s what I originally had assumed she meant; but she had something very different in mind.Q. But that would mean only one thing—that she would have sex with another man. A black man. Did that upset you?A. No. It didn’t. You see—and this is difficult to explain—but even though Mara and I loved each other very much (we’d only been married for a couple of years), I was finding it difficult to sexually satisfy her as I would have preferred. I have a small cock, you see. Slightly less that five inches, fully erect. Though Mara had never voiced a complaint about that, I knew she was disappointed, and sexually frustrated! I didn’t want her to be unfulfilled in that way. I’d already been thinking about ways to give her a more fulfilling, and sexually satisfying outlet. We both sometimes watch porn together, and I began coming across these amazing videos of black guys with huge cocks fucking white women (internet porn is dominated by such videos now days), and I started sending istanbul escort links to such things to Mara, and she, in turn, would send me some as well. It was exciting! I even began masturbating to these videos—thinking about Mara doing that, and the orgasms I had while doing so were so incredibly intense! That was when I decided that perhaps Mara really ought to have a baby, and with a black guy, instead of me!Q. How did Mara react when you told her?A. Excited! After that, I began looking around on-line for a way to make this happen.Q. Where did you meet Omar? (Omar was the Zambian man who eventually got Mara pregnant.)A. Kik. It’s an on-line social media site. We began chatting back and forth, and the more we did, the more serious the idea of him getting Mara pregnant became for he and I both. Mara began chatting with him as well, and I found that very thrilling; and it didn’t take long before realized that this was more than just some kinky on-line chatting, and that this was a serious proposition! We eventually worked out a time, and a place, in which to meet Omar. Q. And that was Nairobi, Kenya. Why there?A. That’s where Omar was living and working at the time. He’s from Zambia, but he does day-labor work on various farms. It’s seasonal work. Many African men do that sort of temporary work. So, Mara and I found a nice hotel in Nairobi, and booked a room. We booked a flight down to there, too. We went in early October. The weather was beautiful. The countryside was so green and lush. Such a contrast from home. We even did some wildlife safari trips, too; between the visits Omar made to our hotel room.Q. About those visits to your hotel room—What was that like? I mean, how did Mara react? Also, how did Omar and you get along?A. Mara was so enthusiastic! We knew what Omar looked like because we’d exchanged photos (of him, as well as of Mara). But the actual, face-to-face meeting that first time was incredibly exciting for all three of us! I don’t think I’d ever felt anything quite as exhilarating as that first meeting with Omar. Mara was nervous. I was nervous, too. But there was also an intense feeling of anticipation that was even more powerful, and that tended propel all three of us on.Q. But for you, did it feel strange that Omar was there in order to have sex with Mara, and get her pregnant if he could?A. If by ‘strange’ you mean did it seem out of the ordinary that I wasn’t going to be the one to get Mara pregnant, then yes. But I was excited by the idea, too! Like avcılar escort I said earlier, I already knew that I wasn’t sexually satisfying Mara like I knew she preferred to be (even though we loved each other in spite of that), and that she wanted a much bigger cock. I’d already accepted that before we flew down to Kenya. I’d also embraced the idea that Mara wanted a baby by a black man; and, not just a black man, but an African man. So, when Omar walked through our hotel room door that first time, it was a forgone conclusion that Mara was going to go back home carrying (so we hoped) Omar’s baby.Q. Are you and Mara religious?A. We are Catholic. But we don’t go to church often.Q. Did the fact that Omar having sex with Mara (and likely getting her pregnant) might be construed as a ‘sin’ by the Church, ever give either of you any qualms?A. Not really. Q. What about you and Mara’s families? How have they reacted to Mara having Omar’s baby, instead of yours? If you don’t mind me asking.A. We didn’t tell them at first. We were a little worried about how everyone was going to react, but we were determined not to let anything deter us from going on with our plan! As a Catholic country, we knew that even if our parents didn’t like the idea of Mara having Omar’s baby, there would be no question of her not having an abortion! That was never going to be an option! Not for Mara and I certainly.Q. So the baby’s fathers identity was never revealed until after the birth?A. The doctor knew about it. Mara and I had eventually had a long talk with her about that.Q. How did that go?A. It went good. I think she was a little surprised. At first. But then she said (the doctor, that is) that she was seeing this sort of thing (white married couples having a mixed race baby) more and more. She was very supportive. She didn’t condemn us for it. Though, she did caution us that certain elements of our society might turn a jaundiced eye on the paternity of the baby.Europe is wrestling with the immigrant issue, and some whites are growing angry and resentful of their presence in our society. But that was part of why Mara was so intent on having an African man’s baby—as a way of demonstrating solidarity for their plight. The West has never understood the troubles of the developing world, and are sadly very callous to their struggles. Omar will never benefit from Europe’s economic strength, but now his baby will! Omar has two wives in Zambia, and nine c***dren between them. Now he has a tenth c***d, and that c***d will have advantages (sad şirinevler escort to say) that his other nine will probably never have; but that was a big reason behind Omar’s participation in our own project! No matter what, Omar’s tenth c***d will be very, very lucky to grow up in Europe, and with all the advantages that will bring.Q. Do you ever feel resentment towards Omar for impregnating Mara, instead of you being the one to do so?A. Not at all. I know that a lot of men would be jealous, or even angry with that, but not me. My indentity isn’t tied to my ego. Not being the biological father is not an issue for me. The health, happiness, and safety of the baby is my primary focus. Besides, the way Mara and I see it (and I think Omar sees it that way too)—A father is as a father does. Biology is just one part of it. It’s what you do, every hour of every day, that counts the most. I intend to love and care for Omar and Mara’s baby just as if it I was the father! I make no distinctions in that regard. Passing on my own genes is not the big deal for me that it is for most men. In fact, I’ve chosen to never pass on my genes. Mara and I will continue to have other c***dren after this one, but they will have different fathers, but only one mother. My wife! Mara.Q. Do you and Mara have sex together?A. We are intimate. But that doesn’t always mean in an obviously sexual way. Sometimes we have sex, but I mainly just masturbate.Q. Is that enough for you? Don’t you ever want to have sex with Mara?A. As I said: we are frequently ‘intimate’, but it doesn’t necessarily lead to sex; or not sexual intercourse. But masturbation is enough for me! That brings all the needed relief I need.Q. Do you watch porn?A. (Smiles) Oh yes! Very often. Porn and masturbation meets all the needs I have for sexual release; and that’s why I think I’m such a good cuckold!It’s often assumed that to have a good marriage you have to have lots of sex together as a couple; and maybe for most couples that’s true, but for Mara and I (and it’s always been this way), sex plays only a small part in our over all relationship. Intimacy is about being fully open to another person, and that’s a mainly psychological openness. Mara and I are VERY open and intimate in that way. Sex is of secondary importance between us. That’s crucial if your going to be in a cuckold lifestyle sort of relationship. If your overly possessive, and tend to be jealous…you probably shouldn’t try being a cuckold! It will not work for you. For Mara and I, sex is NOT the glue that holds us together. What holds us together is much deeper, and more strong than the passing passions of sexual lust.Q. Very intriguing. Thanks for your candor. I wish you and Mara (and Omar, too) all the best of luck in the coming years.A. Thanks. I appreciate that.Q. Perhaps, in the coming months, we could check back in with you both and see how things are going.A. I’d be open to that.The End

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